If you were here, I know you would be reluctant to have this conversation.

But you are not here. And so I will speak freely from my heart, at least once.

I miss you. I miss your spirit, your friendship. The comfort of your presence. The warmth of your smile. Had I not already known I needed you, this time apart would have taught me a thousand times over.

When I find you again, I will never again lose sight of you. I will speak these words so that you hear them, so that you know that no matter how much we know is lost - you will know that I am yours. And nothing will change that. Not time, not distance. Not whether you will have me or not.

I love you. And I hope most for the time I can speak these words to you, and you will feel no need to stop me.