Asuka suffers from immense psychological trauma. When she was very young, her mother was severely injured during a test of Eva 02 and was retrieved - but changed. She no longer saw Asuka as "Asuka". Instead, she treated a doll as if it were her daughter, ignoring her very real, flesh and blood daughter, even when she was in the room.
To compound the abandonment issues that spring from this, her mother committed suicide - hanging the doll that she believed to be her daughter with her. Asuka discovered the body. So, Asuka hates relying on anyone - because to do so would be to admit that she is a child and weak. But she detests being alone. She wants to be noticed, to be cared for, to truly be the center of attention - because it validates her and her low self-esteem, self-image and helps her deal with her abandonment issues.
She's pretty screwed up.
She's afraid that she isn't the best pilot and that it's goign to get her kicked off the squadron. She's afraid she won't be noticed. That she isn't special anymore.
Asuka Langley Soryu - Death
To compound the abandonment issues that spring from this, her mother committed suicide - hanging the doll that she believed to be her daughter with her. Asuka discovered the body. So, Asuka hates relying on anyone - because to do so would be to admit that she is a child and weak. But she detests being alone. She wants to be noticed, to be cared for, to truly be the center of attention - because it validates her and her low self-esteem, self-image and helps her deal with her abandonment issues.
She's pretty screwed up.
She's afraid that she isn't the best pilot and that it's goign to get her kicked off the squadron. She's afraid she won't be noticed. That she isn't special anymore.
And that's about it.