- Hiccup's notebook, oh, his notebook. Aside from being his diary and being full of technical drawings and observations and drawings of things, he has so much embarrassing stuff in there. Among other things, there are:
1) Near-nude drawings of Astrid. Kinda pinup-like, but of the Viking warrior babe variety. She's seen them after nosing through, and there was a slight tiff they had over it, so he's been respectful since and not drawn his little teenage boy fantasies, but this is most definitely not common knowledge, and he'd be mortally embarrassed if people knew. He still draws her a lot in general, though, and some drawings still verge a bit on the hormonal.
2) Very hormonally-charged writing. There is sexy stuff in the writings in his notebook because that's where all his private teenage boy thoughts go and a huge proportion of those thoughts, yes, do have to do with sex. It's kinda like he gets it all out in the notebook so it doesn't occupy his thoughts too much in the day to day. Internally, he's about as perverted as many teenage boys are and has spent way, way too much time thinking--and sometimes writing about--Astrid's hips and muscular arms.
3) On the mushier, more romantic end, there are embarrassingly bad half-written "maiden-songs" (Viking love poetry) in there, that might pooossibly be about Astrid and how wonderful she is. He's really a lot more lovesick than he's let on to even her. He really, really cares about her, and they've been dating like 7-8 solid in-game months now, and he's now starting to go beyond teenage infatuation and into the first stages of falling in love. He's afraid she doesn't have the same depth of feeling for him. He writes about these worries sometimes, in between the poems.
4) Drawings of a lot of people on the ship. Yes, guys, he's been drawing a lot of you without your knowing.
- He has a horned helmet that was brought on board from home. He doesn't wear it often, but he doesn't intend to ever let go of it. It's made of half of his mother's breastplate.
- While he obviously would've preferred it never happened, a weird part of him is perversely thankful for at least one thing being abused by his fake dad on the mission taught him. Any lasting regrets or bitterness towards his father completely disappeared, because having a parent that awful made him look at his real father, and the fact that his real father loved him dearly and ultimately was willing to admit his mistakes and try to be a better father was made a lot more clear in his mind. He isn't acting like his false life didn't bother him because he's in shock or repressing it. It actually doesn't bother him, because he has healthy enough self esteem now that he can dismiss all the things Jerry tried to drill into his head as bullshit, and he's treating the whole thing as just a reminder of what a real father is like and how much Stoick loves him.
He even thinks it's slightly dysfunctional, but after going through the mission, he's actually more at peace now with his relationship with Stoick than he was before going on it. He forgives him now.
- He thinks he's going to die during the course of the war with the Ohm. He has too much catching up to do as a fighter, and he thinks he's weaker than many others on board. Oh sure, he can find a way to contribute and he's doing that, and he thinks he'll help accomplish quite a lot of good, but he thinks that a lot of the crew is going to die, and that it's highly likely he'll be one of those people that does. He's not too shaken up about it or fatalistic or anything. If he survives, great! If he dies in battle, hey, best way possible to go, right? Dying while fighting, you know, he's a Viking. That's an occupational hazard, right there. So he thinks that, but it's not a big deal. He'll enjoy his life as much as he can in the meantime, try his best to help, try his best not to die, and if it does happen, he plans to try to do it with dignity. It's actually not a bad attitude to have, because he's ready if it does happen, and if he's proven wrong, that's a great thing to be proven wrong about.
Warning: Child abuse
1) Near-nude drawings of Astrid. Kinda pinup-like, but of the Viking warrior babe variety. She's seen them after nosing through, and there was a slight tiff they had over it, so he's been respectful since and not drawn his little teenage boy fantasies, but this is most definitely not common knowledge, and he'd be mortally embarrassed if people knew. He still draws her a lot in general, though, and some drawings still verge a bit on the hormonal.
2) Very hormonally-charged writing. There is sexy stuff in the writings in his notebook because that's where all his private teenage boy thoughts go and a huge proportion of those thoughts, yes, do have to do with sex. It's kinda like he gets it all out in the notebook so it doesn't occupy his thoughts too much in the day to day. Internally, he's about as perverted as many teenage boys are and has spent way, way too much time thinking--and sometimes writing about--Astrid's hips and muscular arms.
3) On the mushier, more romantic end, there are embarrassingly bad half-written "maiden-songs" (Viking love poetry) in there, that might pooossibly be about Astrid and how wonderful she is. He's really a lot more lovesick than he's let on to even her. He really, really cares about her, and they've been dating like 7-8 solid in-game months now, and he's now starting to go beyond teenage infatuation and into the first stages of falling in love. He's afraid she doesn't have the same depth of feeling for him. He writes about these worries sometimes, in between the poems.
4) Drawings of a lot of people on the ship. Yes, guys, he's been drawing a lot of you without your knowing.
- He has a horned helmet that was brought on board from home. He doesn't wear it often, but he doesn't intend to ever let go of it. It's made of half of his mother's breastplate.
- While he obviously would've preferred it never happened, a weird part of him is perversely thankful for at least one thing being abused by his fake dad on the mission taught him. Any lasting regrets or bitterness towards his father completely disappeared, because having a parent that awful made him look at his real father, and the fact that his real father loved him dearly and ultimately was willing to admit his mistakes and try to be a better father was made a lot more clear in his mind. He isn't acting like his false life didn't bother him because he's in shock or repressing it. It actually doesn't bother him, because he has healthy enough self esteem now that he can dismiss all the things Jerry tried to drill into his head as bullshit, and he's treating the whole thing as just a reminder of what a real father is like and how much Stoick loves him.
He even thinks it's slightly dysfunctional, but after going through the mission, he's actually more at peace now with his relationship with Stoick than he was before going on it. He forgives him now.
- He thinks he's going to die during the course of the war with the Ohm. He has too much catching up to do as a fighter, and he thinks he's weaker than many others on board. Oh sure, he can find a way to contribute and he's doing that, and he thinks he'll help accomplish quite a lot of good, but he thinks that a lot of the crew is going to die, and that it's highly likely he'll be one of those people that does. He's not too shaken up about it or fatalistic or anything. If he survives, great! If he dies in battle, hey, best way possible to go, right? Dying while fighting, you know, he's a Viking. That's an occupational hazard, right there. So he thinks that, but it's not a big deal. He'll enjoy his life as much as he can in the meantime, try his best to help, try his best not to die, and if it does happen, he plans to try to do it with dignity. It's actually not a bad attitude to have, because he's ready if it does happen, and if he's proven wrong, that's a great thing to be proven wrong about.