No More Secrets Meme

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Good evening meatship, I bring you your Friday meme!

No More Secrets

1. All of your character's darkest and most embarrassing secrets, the ones that they have been holding back from the crew, are now common knowledge.

2. Since not everyone knows everyone's canon, comment with your character and a bulleted list of the things they have been holding back from the crew. These can be funny things (that time I ran around with my underwear outside my pants), embarrassing things (Little Black Book-type secrets) or the dark things they never wanted anyone to know.

3. Other characters react to these sudden revelations about your character. Will it change the way people feel about each other?

IMPORTANT: PLEASE POST WARNINGS IN THE SUBJECT LINE IF SOMETHING IN THE COMMENT IS TRIGGERY. This meme has the potential to be a lot more dramatic than our usual fare, and I want to make sure everyone is comfortable.

Muns, have fun! Characters... well, I'm not sure "fun" applies.

Comments

Warning: Child abuse

[i-saw-myself.livejournal.com]

- Hiccup's notebook, oh, his notebook. Aside from being his diary and being full of technical drawings and observations and drawings of things, he has so much embarrassing stuff in there. Among other things, there are:

1) Near-nude drawings of Astrid. Kinda pinup-like, but of the Viking warrior babe variety. She's seen them after nosing through, and there was a slight tiff they had over it, so he's been respectful since and not drawn his little teenage boy fantasies, but this is most definitely not common knowledge, and he'd be mortally embarrassed if people knew. He still draws her a lot in general, though, and some drawings still verge a bit on the hormonal.

2) Very hormonally-charged writing. There is sexy stuff in the writings in his notebook because that's where all his private teenage boy thoughts go and a huge proportion of those thoughts, yes, do have to do with sex. It's kinda like he gets it all out in the notebook so it doesn't occupy his thoughts too much in the day to day. Internally, he's about as perverted as many teenage boys are and has spent way, way too much time thinking--and sometimes writing about--Astrid's hips and muscular arms.

3) On the mushier, more romantic end, there are embarrassingly bad half-written "maiden-songs" (Viking love poetry) in there, that might pooossibly be about Astrid and how wonderful she is. He's really a lot more lovesick than he's let on to even her. He really, really cares about her, and they've been dating like 7-8 solid in-game months now, and he's now starting to go beyond teenage infatuation and into the first stages of falling in love. He's afraid she doesn't have the same depth of feeling for him. He writes about these worries sometimes, in between the poems.

4) Drawings of a lot of people on the ship. Yes, guys, he's been drawing a lot of you without your knowing.

- He has a horned helmet that was brought on board from home. He doesn't wear it often, but he doesn't intend to ever let go of it. It's made of half of his mother's breastplate.

- While he obviously would've preferred it never happened, a weird part of him is perversely thankful for at least one thing being abused by his fake dad on the mission taught him. Any lasting regrets or bitterness towards his father completely disappeared, because having a parent that awful made him look at his real father, and the fact that his real father loved him dearly and ultimately was willing to admit his mistakes and try to be a better father was made a lot more clear in his mind. He isn't acting like his false life didn't bother him because he's in shock or repressing it. It actually doesn't bother him, because he has healthy enough self esteem now that he can dismiss all the things Jerry tried to drill into his head as bullshit, and he's treating the whole thing as just a reminder of what a real father is like and how much Stoick loves him.

He even thinks it's slightly dysfunctional, but after going through the mission, he's actually more at peace now with his relationship with Stoick than he was before going on it. He forgives him now.

- He thinks he's going to die during the course of the war with the Ohm. He has too much catching up to do as a fighter, and he thinks he's weaker than many others on board. Oh sure, he can find a way to contribute and he's doing that, and he thinks he'll help accomplish quite a lot of good, but he thinks that a lot of the crew is going to die, and that it's highly likely he'll be one of those people that does. He's not too shaken up about it or fatalistic or anything. If he survives, great! If he dies in battle, hey, best way possible to go, right? Dying while fighting, you know, he's a Viking. That's an occupational hazard, right there. So he thinks that, but it's not a big deal. He'll enjoy his life as much as he can in the meantime, try his best to help, try his best not to die, and if it does happen, he plans to try to do it with dignity. It's actually not a bad attitude to have, because he's ready if it does happen, and if he's proven wrong, that's a great thing to be proven wrong about.

[foreseen-future.livejournal.com]

[shows him her doodles of Astrid. They aren't as good as his really artistic sketches...but hey, Astrid looks chibi and angry!]

[i-saw-myself.livejournal.com]

Heh. Those are pretty good.

...Don't let her see them if you want to live.

[foreseen-future.livejournal.com]

Eh. I'm not scared.

[Here. Wait. She flips a few pages. Calnus engine. Calnus engine. Calnus engine. Calnus gears. Calnus engine... oh, here! She drew a different viking!]

You guys are a lot different than from what I've read in the history books.

[i-saw-myself.livejournal.com]

I've actually read some books and they have a lot of things wrong. Or maybe they're just from different worlds, I guess? Like every Viking has the horned helmets where we come from, but apparently in other places, they don't have them and dress a little different.

[foreseen-future.livejournal.com]

So the viking wedding night is viewed by the entire village?

[i-saw-myself.livejournal.com]

NO. No, we--we did away with that one.

Although that's just Berk. That one's still right in some other places Vikings live in our world. Berk customs are a little...different, part of why we settled away from other Vikings in the first place.

[astridhofferson.livejournal.com]

[foreseen-future.livejournal.com]

What did I say about making your glare menacing?

[astridhofferson.livejournal.com]

[Sigh. Is she losing her touch? Hiccup has made her too soft.]

[Grumble, grumble.] Shut up.

[foreseen-future.livejournal.com]

Nope. Wrong again. [Flips to a blank page and starts drawing Astrid.]

[astridhofferson.livejournal.com]

Go on. Draw. I don't care.

[governorkang]

...I'm surprised Astrid didn't gut you when she found those drawings.

[i-saw-myself.livejournal.com]

[Hides his face]

I think the only reason she didn't was because I'd been pre-gutted by the alien-thing. She was so grateful I was alive she decided not to kill me.

[governorkang]

[griiiin]

Then you got lucky. Let me see some of those other drawings; I'm curious now.

[i-saw-myself.livejournal.com]

[Shows the ones of Kang. They're really rather good, especially after he stole some better pencils from Possessions. He has no artistic skill whatsoever when it comes to drawing something from his head unless it's technical in nature, but he's good at drawing technical things or drawing from sight.]

[governorkang]

Huh. These are good. You've got a real talent here, Hiccup.

Re: Warning: Child abuse

[astridhofferson.livejournal.com]

[Your mun holds nothing back, Hiccup. Some of that even concerns her.]

That's quite a list.

And I won't let you die...

Re: Warning: Child abuse

[i-saw-myself.livejournal.com]

I know, Astrid.

[squirms]

I'm just being realistic. It's not even that I think I'm that weak anymore. It's just a lot of the people on the ship that aren't trained as well are probably going to have more trouble surviving. I think I might make it, I know you'll protect me as best as you can in the meantime, I--I know.

As for the rest of that...

[What does he say about the poems? About the love part? She already knew about the pervy parts, a bit, but the love ones are the ones he's tried to hide.]

The rest doesn't really mean anything. It's not--it's just--ha ha, you know us teenage boys and our, our thinking things mean more than they mean, and--and--overestimating, uh--overestimating our own--our own feelings? I guess?

Re: Warning: Child abuse

[astridhofferson.livejournal.com]

[Nods. Yeah, she understands.]

[Have some fidgeting and some eye averting.]

I..I don't mind if it means something, though...

[i-saw-myself.livejournal.com]

[fidget fidget, they are both awkward fidgeting things about stuff like this]

Well...

[he's gotten a little braver over his time on the ship, in a lot of ways.]

Well then, I--I guess--I guess if you don't mind, it's okay to tell you that I think I'm starting to--

[he rubs a hand over his cheek, thinking hard]

I'm starting to think of you as more than just--I--

[astridhofferson.livejournal.com]

Hiccup. You don't have to force it.

[Tell me when you're absolutely ready... idiot...]

[riseupnchargem.livejournal.com]

It's finding a place to hide the pervy drawings and dirty sex poems where the girlfriend won't find them that's the real trick. Or anyone else, for that matter. I just stashed mine in the Geno's cockpit.

[i-saw-myself.livejournal.com]

I usually keep it in my vest pocket so that someone typically has to at least take it from me.

[riseupnchargem.livejournal.com]

That would've worked if I'd been even marginally physically intimidating. I think the Geno at least made people hesitate a little.